So glad to see you here, Jgnat. Thanks for the book recommendations. I have always thought that those of us who chose to be a jw did so to fill very personal needs. I also think many of us outgrow those needs later in life.
The shameful part is that there is no honorable way to leave. I mean, you should just be able to say you no longer feel the need for such beliefs in your life. Even the Bible says we grow up spiritually and that is a good thing.